Xbox One and why I'm sticking with Microsoft

Recently, there has been insane amounts of banter about the Xbox One and the PS4.  According to numerous websites, polls, and other sources of chatter, it seems that most consumers will be buying Sony's console this holiday season.  But as for me, I am still strongly buying the Xbox One.

While many will instantly bash on me for this statement, this console works very well for me.  But I will start with some technical information to give people a background of the consoles.

So, spec wise, lets admit it, they are practically identical.  And with the graphics these days, nobody except a fanatic techy is going to pinpoint the differences between graphic capabilities.  Also, Microsoft is now implementing a digital rights program that restricts a lot of access to used content and game sharing as well as require internet access.  If you need more information on that, just search "Xbox DRM" and hundreds of articles will pop up. Finally, both consoles now require annual fees to engage in online gaming and both have their fair share of exclusives.

With that said, there are a few reasons why I am buying the Xbox One.  
1) Games and downloads
2) Kinect
3) Xbox Live
4) User Interface and SmartGlass

First off, I am the kind of person who buys maybe 3 or 4 games for my console the first year and maybe one or two games the following years.  As of right now, my plans are to buy Destiny, Battlefield 4, Forza 5, and the next Halo game.  I will admit, I am a huge Halo fan from the start.  That is a huge swaying factor for me, and personally, I have never enjoyed many of the Playstation exclusives.

But here is my main argument against the new game policy placed by Microsoft.  

As somebody who enjoys the power of emerging technology I am going to take full advantage of the online capabilities by Microsoft and direct download all of my games.  The convenience of a large SSD is fantastic.  To never have to put in a game again is awesome!  I will enjoy ridiculously fast load times and with Xbox's new platform, I can switch between games and apps instantly.  I absolutely love that feature!  So with that said, I don't care for used games or sharing games with my friends.  When I buy a game, I have done extensive research and know exactly what I am buying.  I have no need to try it out first. I have also never had a good experience with used games. I would rather have all of my content in one place that is easy for me to access.

Second, I am a big fan of the Kinect.  Unlike many gamers out there, I host a lot of dance parties and such with my friends.  I also enjoy using voice commands.  I understand that voice commands can be a joke but I use them when I am not gaming.  For example, if I am about to do dishes, it will be nice to just voice command my Xbox and watch movies, listen to music, or browse videos without doing anything.  

Most people, both Xbox fans and Playstation fans will admit that Microsoft has a smoother and friendlier online service than Sony.  The Xbox community is something that I have always loved.  Most of my close friends are Live members and it's great to play big matches in BF3 with my squad members all being people I know.  

Finally, the Microsoft Xbox OS is cleaner and much more user-friendly than Sony's.  I liked how Microsoft didn't over Windows-ize the Xbox OS.  It still is true to Xbox and is something that has always worked well.  But my favorite thing is Xbox SmartGlass.  Being able to use my tablet or phone to work with my consoles is a favorite feature of mine.  Regardless of the technology, voice searches are not always very accurate.  Adding keyboard features is wonderful.  Also, there are numerous times while watching something on Netflix and I am struggling to remember an actors name or where they played in the past, and having my iPad ready with that information instantly is pretty cool.  Playstation has the Vita, but I just can't justify having a portable console on me. I am just not that hardcore of a gamer.

I think some of the features by Xbox One are impressive as well. I don't really care for the Xbox TV and Fantasy Football or Skype stuff.  I don't use any of these programs, ever.  But the direction that Microsoft is taking with online services and digital content is the way that gaming is shifting.  We all understand that the CDs and Blu-Ray discs becoming obsolete and it will just be a matter of time before everything is web-based.

Finally, these are some things I never enjoyed with the PS4.
1) The exclusives (I'm just not a fan of Uncharted, LBP, and such)
2) The online service
3) The controller
4) The look and styling of the console
5) Move and Eye Camera

All in all, I feel that the PS4 is really lacking some features that the Xbox has.  And this whole DRM thing that everybody is whining about, it really is not a big deal.  I download my games and my console is NEVER offline.  I mean, when am I ever not going to have internet in my house? The Xbox One is a sleek system with a wonderful and loyal fan base and continues to innovate new ways to make the Xbox more of an all-in-one system.  I still choose the Xbox One.

Something that needs your attention.

I'm letting you know right now, you are probably going to either love or hate this blog post.  Just a heads up...

As a first born son, I've always taken on the responsibility of knowing that every step I take is being carefully observed and replicated by my younger brothers.  It's something I've just grown up with and sometime forget about.  But it's what drives me to success.  I look at who I am and think, "would my younger brother want to be where I am at right now?"  Or would he look at my life and think of how he will take every step he can to be the opposite of who I am.  So with that said, I place a lot of responsibility on men to be leaders to women. It's a very controversial issue in the emerging contemporary church but I believe that in a marriage relationship, a man's primary responsibility is to be as christlike as possible.  This is what it means to lead.  To serve, respect, unconditionally love, and have passion to maximize his wife and make her all that she can be.  People often look to biblical verses regarding men having power over women and get all edgy about it.  I disagree and think that what was written was very intentional.  Yes I understand that in ancient times, culture was dominated by a powerful system of masculine superiority.  But understand that a truly powerful and righteous man will do anything within his power to serve others.  It is something that in our American culture, we have really lost touch with.  I wish it wasn't that way.  I wish that men would look to what Jesus taught on service and love and compassion and truly realize how beautiful it is when two people can love each other and serve so passionately.

So why am I writing about this?  Well lately, I've been encountering a lot of instances where men of my age have really screwed up, and I thought I should say something about it.  Simply said, I cannot count on my two hands how many women in my life have been raped or sexually assaulted by a man.  How many women will have burdens that they carry into every future relationship they will ever have?  How many marriages will struggle because of one man's lack of judgement?  Think of how many girls there are out there that believe that they are far from God and blackened by actions they had little to no influence on.  I've seen the court hearings.  I've seen the suicides and the drug addictions that develop out of this.  These women's lives are lost.  And we all know that.  Sexual abuse is an epidemic that is running rampant through our schools, our homes, and our families.  This is unacceptable!

Like I said, we hear this a lot today.  It is no mystery that women are being attacked by men.  But hink of how often you hear of the guy of the situation?  Somehow he manages to walk away.  But what I can't even begin to understand is how can this even be possible? How do you invisibly walk away from raping a woman?!  Do you not look at Facebook and see that smiling profile picture and realize that she will probably never smile for the rest of the year because of what you've done to her?  How can you possibly live with yourself?!  How can you even begin to tollerate the guilt and shame and utter embarrassment for how immature and weak you are?  You destroyed her life and made her think that it was her fault!  I don't get it.

When I lived in Idaho, I participated in a group called Start Strong.  I was young, about 16 years old.  As part of this group, I led and coordinated several events at the local middle schools and taught short sessions on healthy dating and spotting the signs of abuse.  I absolutely loved this program!  And I learned a lot, but what really struck me was how these 12 to 15 year old boys were viewing the girls of their school.  These teenage girls were objects, traded for a monetary value based on the shape of their body and the length of their hair.  I couldn't believe what I was seeing.  I began to search for answers.  In one specific class session, I asked everybody, girls included, what it meant to be a man and what phrases come to mind when you think of manliness.  The top answers were typically "rub some dirt on it," "no pain no gain," "men don't cry," and "be in control."  I would then ask them what it meant to not be a man.  The top answer by a long shot was "pussy," followed by "gay" and "weak."  All of which are derogatory towards women (which is another whole blog in itself).  So there was my problem.  The image of what it meant to be a man.  But can it be changed?  I'm quickly losing hope.

I could go on and write a lot more about this, but it's 2:45 in the morning and I need to collect my thoughts and go to bed.  If you want to hear more, shoot me up an invite to coffee or lunch.

So my challenge is simple. Men, grow up and realize what it means to really be man!  Are you going to go out and be that badass that you are as you slap your girl and force her to have sex with you?  Are you going fall into your apetites and fill that short term desire for sex?  How much does it cost to fill that desire?  Is rape the ultimate cost?  What about her life?  

I want to create a shift in this perspective.  So please, join me and make women feel loved!  Tell her how beautiful her eyes are today! How much you like her dress.  Can you imagine how different this world would be if women can look at your face and think "Wow! He is a great friend and cares for me so much!  That is a true man of God!"  I want to be that man of God.  I want so badly to understand God's love just so I can share it with the world and spread it to everybody around me!

To the women out there who have been affected by the immature actions of men in your lives, I'm sorry.  I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.  I will never be able to fathom the pain that you have gone through.  I know that there isn't much I can do to help but I really want to encourage you to reach out and seek help.  I was absolutely blown away by how many girls, especially close friends of mine, that keep sexual assault and rape a secret from their family and church.  God has so much mercy and love for you! There is nothing that can separate you from that!  If you attend Azusa Pacific University, you are probably not going to get a better chance to share this pain you suffer from.  The people here are authentic and love you so much!  I pray for your courage and that you can see the love that God has for you.

Peace.

When I grow up.

I think it's funny how all of us at some point in our childhood were asked the ultimate question, "What do you want to do when you grow up?" 

Initially, as a 5-year-old, I wanted to be a mailman.  I thought it would be so great to see all of the wonderful mail people receive and to know everyone in my neighborhood by name.  Cute, huh? Next I heard garbage men earned good money and they got to ride on trucks by hanging on to them.  You can see where my priorities shifted.  Later into middle school, I dreamed of being a car designer.  Still something I would consider today, I have always been in love the with the engineering and beauty behind one of the most essential and costly investments Americans ever make.  Soon after, about eighth grade, I was a pastor's kid, and I wanted to travel the world doing mission work.  I'm sure many professors at APU would try to steer me back in that direction.  That soon faded as I realized that I have a gift in small business.  So from there I did small business management with Donkeymint Tees and now I have found my love with the outdoors and I am seeking to bridge the gap between my business mindset and my thrill seeking personality.

So why am I writing about this now?  Well, I'm just a few years away from graduation and I need to begin to figure things out.  In case you don't want to read the rest of this post, as im sure you scrolled to the bottom right when you opened it just to see if my thoughts are worth your 7.5 minutes of time, I'll explain it in one sentence.  When I came to APU, I was so absolutely sure of what I wanted to do, and since then, things have changed and now I'm a little on edge about the paths ahead of me.  This is completely healthy though. It's not that I suddenly don't feel a direction anymore or that I feel in need of purpose. It's just, for the first time I realized that I am going to be 22 years old and can go anywhere I want in the world.  I mean, how am I supposed to respond to that?

I guess I'm not completely confused. I know that I want to go into either resort tourism or sports apparel and gear.  Ideally I would be working for a small but prosperous ski resort or possibly owning my own shop and spending my spare time in the mountains fishing, kayaking, biking, and riding.  Also, I would love to work for North Face, Patagonia, FreeRide, or any ski or board organization and work on their branding, marketing, and product development.  You get the gist of what I hope to do, God willing.

So what this means is that I have such an opportunity at my fingertips and its kinda thrilling.  I have no problem going anywhere as long as I will be thriving in my career.  I think I would like to stay in the country, but moving to Canada, Switzerland, or Austria... Gosh that would be the dream!  I've narrowed my favorites down to a few places throughout the Northwest region.  Though I am always up for suggestions here's what I'm basically looking at: Jackson Hole, WY (gorgeous but crazy expensive), Whitefish, MT (great and beautiful area, just don't know the city well), Anchorage, AK (big mountain skiing, but a stressful place to move to), Revelstoke, BC (world class riding, but in a new country), and finally Vancouver, BC (amazing city, but I think it's a bit too touristy ever since the Olympic Games).
All of these places have their pros and cons.  I actually think its funny that I've actually only been to a few places on this list.  I personally have this odd drive to go to Whitefish, Montana.  I don't know why, it just seems like an amazing place for me.  And, funny story, the guy I sat next to on the plane home was from there.  He told me all about it. I hope next winter, I can make a ski trip there.

When it all boils down, I'm still going to be a young educated business student that is in need of a job.  I just am so ambitious and am really tired of school.  I just want to jump in and make a difference somewhere already.  But college will be over before I know it and I will miss it terribly, but I just can't get over the reality of how close I am to being done and moving on to my life's next big adventure.

Peace be with you.

Closure.

There comes a time when chapters approach an ending. Whether it be in a book, movie, or just life in general, the show must go on.  But regardless of what chapter it is, the author must always realize that  all chapters have one thing in common.  All chapters end with the reader looking forward to what's next.  A chapter does not end and tell you to go back and reread.  There might be sticky notes along the way, followed by scrambled highlights.  But everybody knows that the questions will always be answered in the end. But to seek those answers, you must always be willing to pick up where you left off and read on.

So today, marks the beginning of a new chapter.  I have finished the old, and something new is to come.  My last section ended with sorrow and mystery, love and joy, and just plain ol' suspense.  I will never forget the time I had in this stage of my life.  It has shaped me in ways I never knew possible.  It has created relationships and communities that will last forever take a seat in my heart. However, I must never lose sight of the exhilarating travels that are just beyond the horizon.

As much as I would like to predict what is to happen next, the fact of the matter is that the author of my life has full control and will always stump me.  I can never understand what is to come and where I will be.  I can focus and aim my life in a certain direction, but I will never be far from the path set before me.  This does not worry me.  Because my life story is of adventures, good and evil, and all of the things that make a good plot great.  But like a good narrative, I will never know what is next.  This creates a peace in me. Hoping that perhaps one day, I will be on my merry way, playing a simple game of hide-and-seek. And even then, I will never expect what lingers behind me, amidst the coats in the closet in which I am hiding.

I guess this is what you get when I sit at the A and blast worship music in my headphones.

I've been really needing to work on my car.  I've also been needing a lot of work on my stereo. Same with my bike.  Also with my furnishings.  Oh, did I mention my work ethic?  What about my dirty carpet that needs cleaning?  The point is, I have been busy doing a lot of projects of my own.  Working on my own undertakings has always been the ace of spades when it comes to self confidence and content.  Sometimes I like to search around on Craigslist, find knick knacks that I know are sellable and worth some money, buy them super cheap, and turn them around for a good profit.  Business major at its finest right?  I mean, it makes me some money and I get to do what I love.  

With all of this chatter going on, I have really lost touch with God in my life.  I've been maneuvering my own trails.  The problem is that I have been doing just fine on my own.  But I could be doing a lot better.  God knew it too.  And was just kicking His heels, waiting for the perfect moment to act.

The thing about God is that, in my life, He will always hear everything I even utter to myself.  A couple weeks ago I was mentioning to the leadership team of Outdoor Adventure that I was feeling lukewarm and uncomfortable with my relationship with Christ.  I felt stagnant.  Pale.  Sometimes even empty or on my own.  I didn't really feel like I when I was asking for help and prayer from peers, that I really meant it.  I was sort of mentioning it for mentioning's sake.  I had no real need in my life to pursue God.  I had been making a decent amount of money.  My grades were staying relatively high.  And I was confident in the next stages of my life.  But God, being the sneaky character He often is, knew that I was due for another "big moment."  

I am a businessman.  My number one strength is Maximizer.  I want the best out of every single person I meet because each one of you has something amazing you contribute to the world.  You see, I also have a very unique (well in the sense that I've never met anybody with similar views) image of God and creation.  It seems that many people live in the belief that without God we are nothing.  That apart from God we are incapable of anything. John 15:5 supports this in the metaphor of the vine and the vinedresser. "I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing."  So I'm not trying to intentionally disagree with basic theological understanding but, why would God create humans so incapable?  I would like to believe that God created me a powerful and smart individual.  That God created me with goals and aspirations to excel in the world of business and service, or my passion for growth and personal development.  I'm not saying that I don't need God.  But sometimes I really want to do things on my own.  Sort of the "learn to fly" idea.  With this said, I believe God created people intelligent, capable, adept, and skilled men and women.  I mean, who would want to sit there and manage a bunch of babbling idiots as they attempt to manage the earth?  In Genesis, God gave Adam the responsibility of naming all things of the earth and being in superiority over all creatures.  I don't think God intended to give Adam this power and monitor it the entire time.  I imagine God delegating the work and empowering the people to do things on their own.  For me to imagine that I am an impotent and mindless without God constantly giving me strength is sort of upsetting to me.  Let me do some things on my own. 

Now this is a dangerous claim.  I am well aware of that.  But look at some of the achievements I have accomplished or great leaders have executed.  For example, my luck at getting employment in a lamentable economy.  Ok so I am a tenacious interviewee.  Maybe God created me with strong communication skills and the ability to quickly relate to people, but do you think God spoke the words that came out of my mouth for the answers to every question?  Probably not.  Though certainly God can literally speak through people, but I doubt everything I say, even intelligent of deep thoughts, are generated from my own intellect.

Or for example with the recent re-election of President Barack Obama.  Do you really think that his victory speech was written out and spoken by God?  I think that our President is a brilliant leader that knows very well what to say and do in the given situations.  He is a talented person that is leading one of the world's most powerful civilizations.

I imagine God as a coach.  Perhaps I join the team unable to throw or with a terrible 40 yard sprint time.  But with careful and diligent teaching, one day I will be an excellent player who contributes to the team in my specific skill set   God will always be there in the dugout to come and give me strength and motivation when I am starting to slip up, but the pitching mound is still mine for these innings.

So back to this aforementioned "big moment".  I really don't know how to describe what it feels like when you realize God did something in your life.  It is sort of like you can suddenly see beyond the cave.  You find out that there is so much that you were blind to but can suddenly see.  You become so happy yet filled with an anomalous anger at God for being so clever.  It's sort of like "of course, you WOULD do that!"

I've been fortunate enough to observe maybe 4 or 5 miracles in my life.  Each one exquisite in its own uniqueness.

My hope that each one of you gets to participate in this someday.  It really is quite beautiful.

That's all.

Shalom.

"At your feet,

where your love covers all I've done, 

now I walk with you Lord.  

For I am caught in your arms of love."

PS: Why haven't I ever heard our worship team play this? Arms Open Wide

iPad - the best investment you can make for your biggest investment.

As many of you may know, I bought an iPad this fall.  I had been saving up for no particular reason... well it was more for emergency cash in case of major car problems.  Poor ol' Ruby is getting old and is starting to show.  But sometimes life throws a couple curveballs at you.  But for those who know me a little better, you are probably aware that I have always had a strong resentment towards Apple's iPad.  Why would I spend $500.00 on a tablet when I already own a computer?  It doesn't print on campus, can't stream to a TV here, and serves very little functionality in comparison to a laptop.

Well last year, my grades weren't as hot as they could be.  I sat and pondered what had happened and realized that amongst the parties, trips to the beach, DisneyLand, and the obsession for LAN sessions, my grades were less than satisfactory due to my incredible ability to suck at organizing my time.  I would come back from class and completely forget about entire assignments and I would be unprepared for tests that caught me off guard.  There was a serious problem that needed addressing.

To solve my problem, I needed a way to organize every assignment for every class, take better and more efficient notes, instantly add assignments and pop quizes into my calendar, be portable, and preferably be digital because I'm stingy like that.  

Lo and behold, this was the perfect storm for me to buy my most hated Apple product (besides the iPod Touch of course).  So after much consideration, I purchased an 3rd Generation White iPad with 16GB of memory.

So now half of a semester into owning this educational investment, I can proudly say it has revolutionized the way I do school!  I can't believe I have been doing all of this work that technology could have made so much easier! I'll break it down into two sections: note taking and organization.

First, the way I take notes has been flopped on its head.  Originally, I would sit in class and carefully select what I could write down quickly.  I would abbreviate and cut my notes short because I am a slow writer and I knew that I couldn't write everything down, nor did I want too.  Now with my iPad (which has yet to be named, so please feel free to give suggestions), I download every single powerpoint and PDF through Sakai.  I have every bit of material the professor uses.  I simply follow along in class and highlight or footnote things that are deemed important.  I save so much time with this.  It also allows my wandering brain to fill its constant need for random facts.  For example, in psychology a few weeks ago we brought up studies done on Pavlov's dogs.  Instantly my mind wandered and I wanted to do a little more research just to get a little more background information.  Without the iPad, I would often get caught up in my imagination and would space out as I think about some random tangent.  But with the internet at my fingertips, I can feel free to quickly find answers and then return to the lecture without being too distracted.  It really helps me focus for an entire class period.

Second and most helpful for my grades is how owning an iPad has taken my classes and created an organized system out of the chaos in which they originated.  In the beginning of each semester, I take the calendars from all of my syllabi and consolidate them into my iPad calendar so that I always know what is due and when things are coming up.  Also, it makes it super easy for me to add spontaneous assignments that may come up through the semester.  My iPad reminds me the day before they are due and also links certain classes with emails and my Facebook with the events that I RSVP to.  Even better, with the integration of iCloud, my calendars, assignments, and reminders are all instantly synced with my computer back home.  Work never gets lost or unsaved.

Those are just two benefits I see with my iPad.  It does other things too.  Now I don't have to carry notebooks to class or ever have to sit and write my hand away.  Other little perks come in handy too.  Netflix, YouTube, and other services are all at my fingertips, and I can easily kill time in Heritage Court reading my Kindle and Google eBooks.

So there's my little bluster about my iPad.  Honestly, I hated the product at first, and now I often brainstorm about small business solutions for paperless business.  I really think this could change a lot things about the education system and small business IT.  But keep in mind, the iPad is NOT the replacement for the PC.  Maybe I'll rant about the Microsoft Surface and the direction they are taking technology.  But that's for another day.  

Peace.

Long Time, No See.

Oh dang! It's been so long since I last logged onto Blogger!


Ok... updates on my life and then I'll get back into whatever blogs are meant to do.


1. I love my hall.  I no longer hate them.  2nd North 4ever!
2. My car's registration has expired.
3. I quit my job at Gamestop.  I now work at the APU Computer store.
4. I am staying in Azusa for the summer.
5. I am embarking on adding a minor in graphic design.
6. I have been trying to read more.
7. I drank alcohol for the very first time in my life!!! Big deal people! I went wine tasting over spring break with a family I met two days beforehand.  And then continued to drive quad bikes and shoot squirrels the rest of the day.
8. Still living up the single life and doing well in it.
9. My current favorite movie is Fantastic Mr. Fox.
10. My favorite band is tied between Manchester Orchestra, The Fleet Foxes, and Ra Ra Riot.
11. I only got to go snowboarding once this year, due to a pleasing injury on my second run.  Sadly, my goal of doing a backflip was not met.
12. I have gained over 10 pounds.  Now my jeans that I just got this last winter are already too small.
13. Have not read Hunger Games.  Neither have I seen the movie.


Anyway, there is so much I can write about tonight, and I have no idea really what I want to say.  I felt bad for leaving Blogger so suddenly and not recording any of my life for my faithful stalkers out there.  I guess this last winter and spring was really tough on me.  Lot of good and bad things happen.  But now, I am loving where I am at so that is good.


I took a May term class.  Intro to Literature to be exact.  I had Dr. Kristen Sipper, and plainly, she was quite a character.  Her sense of humor was really funny but only a few students really understood half of it because her jokes tended to require some sort of analysis.  They always involved a random pun or the satirizing of a public figure or group of people.  I thought it was really funny because there was one girl in the class that was rather bold about her thoughts.  She was a sociology major, so I guess that provides some help.  One of those people that has the most passionate thoughts on society.  So every time my professor would joke about how Christians trash of gays all the time or about how Americans need to stop complaining about immigrants taking jobs that we won't do in the first place, that girl would get this big ol' argument wound up and would practically demolish my professor with crazy statistics and whatnot.  It was the most enjoyable class of 12 students, to say the least.


Ok, I thought of something to write about.  Recently, as in the last few months or so, I have been dreaming about what I want to do after college.  I think all of the hype about graduation had gotten me thinking about it.  There was so much to sort out.  I realized that after college, there are so many options for me.  It's not like graduating high school where I knew I was going to go to college and that was all I had to worry about.  Now, I could either go to graduate school and continue my education.  Or I could jump in and get a great job and start working.  This could be virtually anywhere!  I thought about moving back to the Northwest.  Probably not Idaho, there isn't a whole lot that attracts me there.  I was looking into Jackson Wyoming, a couple places in Alaska, and Colorado, and Utah.  Pretty much anywhere in the heart of the Rocky Mountains.


On a side note, what if by the time I get out of college, I'm in a very deep relationship and could be getting married!? The thought of that scares me and makes me shiver.  Ew.  I have put a lot of thought into this actually.  Especially since APU has an astounding 3 to 1 girl to guy ratio or something close to that.  But what really strikes me is that women here are often times very career driven.  Now in our culture, men are typically the individual that brings in the income into a married household.  In fact, after asking numerous people and seeing similar studies, most guys actually value their superiority in their career much more than I thought.  Most men said that they could marry a woman that makes more money than them.  But then what if their wife made more money than them in the same field of work.  This changed the question completely and most guys said they couldn't do that.  I thought that was the most fascinating thing.  So the point I'm leading to is, since women at APU are so passionate about their careers and see that they have an opportunity to provide for themselves and be successful, what happens when they get married? Who sacrifices one career for another?  Normally the wife would always give up her life for that of her husband.  What if say, I get a great job lined up in Seattle while my fiance gets a great opportunity in San Diego?  This question has never really been addressed ever in history.  I kept putting myself in this situation and found that it would be really hard for me to give up my career for that of my significant other.  Maybe that is just me.  I am very driven by success through a career.  Other people may have totally different thoughts.  Something to think about, and something I think about frequently.


So back to my career dreams, I would really like to get a great marketing, event planning, branding, advertising, or something"ing" job somewhere deep in the mountains.  The drive for me to be in the snow and the bitter cold is something that really lights an emotional fire in me.  I had a dream a few weeks ago and I vividly remember it.  The part that makes me remember this dream most is that it was exactly what I wish I could do.


In this dream, I was just graduating college here at APU and I was packing up my things to embark on my career.  I had already gone through an interview process and was offered a job at a ski resort in Alaska as their retail marketing manager.  I would be in charge of all of the company-owned ski shops and would be living on the resort all year round (huge personal fantasy of mine).  Then, while I was packing up my things and filtering through what I was going to take with me, I noticed that I was packing my stuff into my pearl white 2008 Nissan Xterra Pro-4x.  I had been saving most of my college money that I had earned through my four years here and had bought one of my dream cars.  On a trailer was my Audi that had then become my project car because it has over 200,000 miles.  No joke, it really does.  I packed my things and before I knew it, I was leaving sunny California and trucking through Canada and into the Last Frontier.  


If only this would come true.  Most of it, actually, is quite possible.  I have looked into the cost of me getting a new car after I graduate and with the expected value of a Nissan Xterra about 4 years from now being 8 to 10 grand,  I could easily pay half of that in cash.  So I'm not reaching to far here.


With this all said, I miss the mountains.  I miss snow.  I miss silence.  After being in the city for 9 months, I am ready to move on.  There is a lot of cool stuff here in LA County and I hope to get around to seeing the best of it.  But I just can't stay here.  I desire the much more family oriented and friendly environment that I found in Idaho.  Life there is much more simpler.  People care about you there. You know your neighbors.  Here, it is all about having a nice car and dwelling in the corporate world.  The mountains are where I belong.

God Bless.